This past weekend, Mr. P and I and my brother and sister-in-law decided to take a trip down to Columbia and take the girls to the zoo. My brother and I were in Charlotte Friday working a golf tournament so we decided to meet Mr. P and Kiki and the girls there. Only they took forever. So Steve and I took a detour to a driving range and then to the parking lot to take a nap.
Finally, they made it. And it was time to hit the zoo.
Some of Kiki's family made the trip down as well and brought their kiddos. BG had an absolute blast running around with the other kiddos.
Seriously, how many people can one fit into a photobooth?!
The day was so fun. The weather was less than perfect but the kids didn't care. When it rained, we hit the indoor exhibits. Or we ran around in the rain. Either option.
We had such a good day. I love spending time with my little family and I love being surrounded both other friends and family. And my girl? she's made like me. She thrives with her favorite people around.
It was a good day. I kind of can't wait to do it again.
I set out the other day determined to take a few pictures of my newly three year old little girl.
Unfortunately I picked the worst time of day (way too bright) and a less than cooperative subject for my pictures (she wanted to play, I wanted pictures). So the pictures aren't great. But I kind of love them anyway because she's in her element; playing and reading and just being who she is. The pictures are silly but so is she. So maybe they're a win?
K. Still no. But they are definitely a glimpse of who my newly three year old is.
...and the face I see a bit too often. Clearly this means the photo shoot is over no?
There are funny cycles in life. I find that often I'm perfectly content, sometimes bored, sometimes unsettled, and sometimes overwhelmed. They come in waves and each one tends to have super high highs in them.
Right now, I am completely overwhelmed.
My head is a hot mess. My new job is all sorts of awesome but it is also exhausting. Very, very exhausting. There are times I am so frustrated that all I want to do is curl into a corner and cry and then there are times where things are absolutely rocking and I just want to do a little happy dance.
Highs and lows right.
I also suck at balance. I suck at knowing where to stop. I tend to throw myself into things full swing and then leave other things completely untouched. It's not good. The job is hard and it is time consuming but there is life that is outside work. I'm still trying to figure that out.
Lately I've been haunted by past mistakes and it is literally hacking away at my insides. I am so thankful for a God that has forgiven me and has made me new, but it's the people I've hurt in the past that I can't seem to get real forgiveness from. It's like a dark cloud that I just can't seem to shake. It is eating me up which makes me throw myself into work more. Vicious cycle.
The news this week has been plain awful. I look at my sweet girl and wonder how on Earth she is ever going to thrive in a world so ate up with hatred, anger, and greed. I literally want to lock my family in a bubble right now that she never has to leave. A bubble full of hopscotch and jumping frogs games. A bubble with a few too many good night books and a few too many nights spent curled up in bed between the two that love her most. A bubble where laughter is always the best medicine and where she will never doubt that her parents love her more than life itself.
This world is terrifying. My only prayer is that Baby Girl will be consumed with light and will share her light with others around her. That she will be filled with love and will put that out in a world that seems to thrive on hate. I pray that she loves her God with all her heart and that that love shines through her and makes those around her want to know her and want to know about the One that makes her special.
So much seems to be out of my control right now. From work, to home, to this crazy world, I feel like I'm absolutely drowning. I crave a weekend away with my family like nothing else right now. Grown up life can be awesome but it can also suck sometimes. Right now? I would give anything to be a bit younger again. Just for a minute. Or maybe a day. Just to have a few less responsibilities for a second.
I miss this blog so much. I miss pouring my heart out. I miss you ladies. I may not even post this jumble of words because I already feel better just getting it out.
Heck, I'm posting. Welcome to la head de Megan. It's a wreck.
After a morning of Easter activities, we managed to squeeze in a bit of down time lounging around the house and watching the girls play. No lie, it makes my heart do all sorts of crazy things to see two sweet girls playing together in my house. Hmmmm.....
BG was telling AK she was going to take her head off and cook it in the oven. Sometimes I worry about her. She didn't realize we heard her at first, but when we acknowledged what she said, she thought it was hysterical and kept it going. AK didn't find it quite as funny...