Thursday, March 18, 2010

change is in the air...

Ok. I'll admit it. I am not a fan of change. Not big changes. They scare me. They tend to be okay after the fact, but the whole process leading up to the "change"; terrifies me.

And there's a pretty big change on the horizon for our little household.

Let me wax poetic for a second, because if this pregnancy has done one thing, it has made me emotional.

While I cannot, repeat, CANNOT wait to meet my little, perfect angel, I cannot help but be a bit sad by the change in the dynamic of mine and Mr. Perfect's relationship. Sigh...


It's been over 5 years, just the two of us. Over that time we've fallen into quite the little routine and I happen to LOVE it. I love lazy nights curled up on the couch watching tv, I love that we never eat anywhere besides our laps on the couch, that we prefer to eat Mexican every night instead of saving up to go someplace "nice", and the fact that we might love our animals a bit too much.



I adore this man. He makes me laugh until I can't breathe, makes me see red when he gets me angry, but most of all, makes me feel more loved than I ever have in my life. I'll admit it. I'm pretty good at playing the "child" in our relationship, but it's because I know he will always take care of me. I love feeling taken care of. Love it.



Mr. Perfect is my best friend. He's my soulmate and I thank God every day for blessing me with him. I love our relationship. I love how we laugh til we cry, we bicker, we argue and we get over it in 5 seconds. (Well sometimes.. I can hold a pretty fierce grudge...) I guess I'm just nervous about the change our relationship is fixing to take. You know, when we have to be grown ups and responsible for another human being.

Gulp.



I will say one thing about how long it's taken us to become parents; it has given us the chance to grow and learn to love one another in ways I didn't think possible. Over the past 5 years we've been through A LOT. A lot of heartbreak, a lot of good times, a lot of tears, and whole lot of laughs. We've gotten Saved since we got married, we've buried family members, lost our babies, and in the process figured out how to be best friends and each others biggest supporters. Honestly? Sometimes I feel like it's me and him against the world. And I'm completely cool with that.



So yea.. I'm a little nervous about how our relationship is fixing to change to see what dynamic it's fixing to take, but at the same time, I can't wait to see this man become a father. Somehow I know that the love he gives me is not going to diminish, but instead grow and change in ways I can't wait to see. And the love he's fixing to give his daughter? Wow. I can't believe God chose me to be a part of this huge blessing...

15 comments:

d.a.r. said...

This was an amazing post...you two are going to be fantastic, loving, caring, fun parents. Your bebe is so lucky to be coming into such a loving home with such a strong, unbreakable foundation!

Brown Girl said...

This was so sweet. Your relationship sounds wonderful and I'm sure your little baby girl will only add to the joy you have in your life!

Mandy said...

What a sweet post! And don't worry, my daughter is 15 months old and my husband and I still eat all our meals in the family room on our couch. We just put her high chair in there with us!

Virginia Belle said...

Such a sweet post! It sounds like y'all have an amazing marriage that will only get better with time and your new addition :)

The Pink Cheeseburger said...

I am so so happy for you! I have tears in my eyes. Y'all are both so lucky, I love how honest you are, your baby girl will be so blessed!

Milltini said...

awe. this is such a sweet post! and i totally get where you are coming from...change is scary. i have a feeling this change will be amazing...different, but amazing. thinking of you!

SassyEngineer said...

I'm so excited for y'all! You will be awesome parents. I totally think we are lost twins or something though. I am the same way -fear change up until it happens, and then I always survive just fine! I also think I have liked taking the "child" role to an extent in our relationship too. I can only imagine what life will be like for us with babies, but I think we are still a few years off on that one!

alanna said...

aww totally beautiful how in love you two are!! that is one lucky baby!! your honesty is definitely one of the reasons i love your blog so much :)

Newlywed Next Door said...

Awww such a sweet and beautiful post. You guys are going to be WONDERFUL parents!

Jennifer said...

Aww I love this post. I feel the same way. My husband is my everything and life with him has been so great. It will never be the same. But I am sure it only gets better!

Jill said...

such a cute post! also, last weekend jake and i were in sears walking backwards on the escalators, thinking this was the most hilarious thing. we told our typically fun-loving friends who had a baby a few months ago this story and we got judgy eyes. PLEASE don't turn into judgy eyes post-baby! remember how silly you used to be when you're stressed out. it's much more fun to laugh than judge.

Kristin said...

It's an adjustment...but you're gonna be lovin' it in no time!

Miss Jody said...

There will be a change.
But a change for the good too :)

It will bring you closer together:)

You two are awesome.

Hayley said...

Oh my word, when i read his post i was so with you on this one! I often think (and worry) about how our lives will change if we ever have a baby.
I totally get it!

In this wonderful life... said...

you guys are going to be AMAZING PARENTS!!!! such a sweet post!

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