Tuesday, August 2, 2011

homesick.

I'm going to go ahead and give myself a little pat on the back for a second. I have handled this move to small town South Carolina much better than I've been known to handle change in the past.

As I was driving home (wow, home?) the other day, I was laughing about something a friend said at work and thinking about our weekend plans when it hit me; we are actually building a life here.

I'm figuring out these roads, finding the good places to shop, slowly making some great friends, booking photo shoots, and carving out a life for us here.

Unfortunately we still haven't found a church yet (sigh) which is wearing me down. Sunday morning as I sat in church, I saw a guy that I thought looked just like one of my favorite people at church back home. Before I knew it, I had a lump in my throat the size of Texas and I was homesick.

I try not to dwell on it too much because I truly, truly do like it here, but today, I miss home.

I miss being in a church where people know us. Where the nursery workers look forward to seeing Baby Girl each week. Where our friends are in Sunday School with us and our kids are growing up together.

I miss my friends. I miss that we're all finally in the same stage of life again (married with kids) and I'm no longer there. I hate that I'm not seeing those babies grow up and the life I envisioned with our kids being best friends probably isn't going to happen (although I'd be lying if I said I wasn't still hell bent on making that happen).

I miss the beach. I miss sitting on my grandparents back porch watching the boats on the river. I miss skiing and boating. I miss swimming in the river.

I miss girl's nights out. I miss Riverstreet. I miss downtown. I miss Cancun for mexican. I miss Sakura and how they knew my name and my order every single time. I miss the Crab Shack. I miss Tybee.


I miss my soccer team. I miss my work buds. Heck, I even miss my job. I miss my grandparents (especially now). I miss Sunday dinners.

Le sigh...

It's just hard signing onto Facebook and seeing pictures of the Savannah summer that I'm missing.

Dang it Savannah, I just freaking miss you.

Although I do not miss your heat but South Carolina is giving you a run for your money.

I'm doing fine here, I am. I have everything I need in this little house, I'm just a tad homesick. I think I just need beach time....

9 comments:

Lauren said...

Oh girl…. You are so much stronger than you think you are. I know you’ll get through this change and you’ll be stronger for it. Love ya, friend!!!

JDaniel4's Mom said...

It sounds like you have started to grow roots in your new home.

You listed so many activities and friend groups. You will do a great job of getting to know new people.

Paige said...

Aw, bless your heart! I hope it gets easier for you. I can only imagine how easy and wonderful it will be for you to make new friends in your new city! I have only moved 40 minutes from my home since being married and it seems to be super hard for me to meet people.

Rachel said...

Sending you a great big hug!! I know very well how hard it can be to leave all that you now and what feels comfortable. Hang in there. I really need to get down there for a visit!

Virginia Belle said...

I really admire your strength and optimism. I can't imagine leaving everything you know with a baby girl and starting a new life in a new place. It's perfectly normal to be homesick, especially when you have so many wonderful friends there. I'm sure it will only get better with time!

Suze said...

Awe , hugs to you lady :) your awesome for being so optimistic strong and making best of situation! :) good luck finding the right church! It is hard definately! I have one in mind you may want to try!

Jennifer said...

I am so glad you commented on my blog and I came over here!!! I've been looking over your blog and our girls are close in age and I love your blog. I can't wait to read more :)

Jenny @ Practically Perfect... said...

Oh trust me, I know the feeling :-/ I've learned that it takes me at least 6 months whenever we move to start to feel like it's "home", and really at least a year to feel settled and a part of things. And homesickness isn't entirely bad - it just means you came from a really great place that's worth missing :-) Praying that you guys find a church home soon and that you continue to make friends and connections in your new town!

In this wonderful life... said...

sorry you are homesick, friend :( I know you will make equally wonderful memories there with time! xo

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