Monday, August 13, 2012

what had happened was...

So about two weeks ago, we got a phone call. And just like that, our world was flipped upside down again.

About two years ago, we moved from my beloved town of Savannah up to the Upstate of South Carolina. I went willingly because we had no choice, but my heart was definitely a bit broken at leaving the place I loved so, so much.

But eventually, I found that my visits back to Savannah were becoming just that; visits. I went from saying I was going "home for the weekend" to saying "we're heading to Savannah for the weekend". Which is a slight change, but it says so much.

Eventually the little town we live in now became home. I fell in love with it. I love the area, the people, BG's school, our church, and so much more. I turned blog friends into real life friends and made other very dear friends. I like my co-workers, I like BG's friends; I just really like it here.

We started telling our parents that this was where we would be; for good. We were settling in. We were getting comfortable. I really, really thought that this was where God wanted us to be.

And then two weeks ago, we got a phone call. And just like that, our world was flipped upside down. Again.

Mr. P no longer works for the same company that he was working for. The details aren't important (and aren't my story to tell) but that's the gist of it. And that sucks.

So now we're at a crossroads. Fortunately, my husband is amazing and has already secured work. He takes his job as our provider seriously and for that I'm eternally grateful. But... that work, more than likely will be taking us from our beloved little town.

I would be lying if I said that my heart doesn't hurt. Like I said, I love this place. I truly, truly do. But I'd also be lying if I said that I wasn't scared of what's next. And why can't our "what's next" be right here?

I know that there is a plan in all of this. When we moved here two years ago, we were a lot different than we are now. Over the past two years, we've grown significantly in our faith and in our relationship with each other. We've done a lot of growing and changing and it's all been for the best.

So I know that whatever happens next, will eventually be for the best, it's just hard to see right now.

There's so many more thoughts in my head right now. I burst into tears every single time I think about tearing BG away from her beloved friends and her school. I tear up thinking of leaving three ladies that have become very dear friends of mine. I tear up when I think of leaving the place that I've grown to love and the place that really turned the three of us into a family.

I don't know what comes next. Our prayer right now is that God will open our eyes to what He has in store for us next. A small part of me is terrified that we're going to make the wrong decision. In the past few days I've thought that maybe coming here wasn't God's plan and that's why He closed the door so quickly. And I'm terrified to mess up again.

I know now that the time we spent here was God's plan. Just that maybe it's time to move on. As much as I am not sure I'm ready.

We have a couple of options of what happens next. We've been spending lots of time in prayers trying to discern God's will on what our next step will be. Right now? I feel like I'm hearing radio silence. Sigh.

So that's where we're at. We may be moving. We may not be. We have no idea. So if my head is a mess these days, this is why. It's all a little scary and a lot unknown and I'm doing my best to not let my anxiety take control.

Thank you all for the continued prayers.

19 comments:

eas said...

Sending strength your way. It's not easy but together you'll get through it. I went through this with my husband and god kept us under our wing. Now we're back where we wanted to be all along, on the east coast.

Laura @ My Thoughts-Uninterrupted said...

I'll be praying for you guys. I know moving isn't easy, but it seems for us that it always brings good things.

A.B. said...

Ahh I know it's stressful. Crazy stressful. Bonus to moving, if there is one, you get to clean out and organize again?

Thinking of you. Prayers for peace.

Katie @ Loves of Life said...

uhh. work issues are the worst ;( But your husband--what a guy for taking it all so seriously because not all men are like that. Also, I hope you end up in my area. Okay, that's selfish ;)

Seriously, I'm sorry about the transition but I'll pray it's smooth!

Susannah said...

Yikes! That's scary not knowing! I hope y'all get some answers soon. Thinking of you!

Susannah said...

Yikes! That's scary not knowing! I hope y'all get some answers soon. Thinking of you!

Lynsey said...

Continued prayers coming your way! Change and moving is never easy but more times than not, good things come out of it.

Megan said...

I'm sorry Megan. I know things like this are so hard. I hate the uknown, but as you know we serve a God that does know and will protect you and your emotions. It will all work out!

Blue-Eyed Bride said...

I am so sorry, my sweet friend. I moved a ton as a kid, so I know it's hard. I'm praying for God's protection for your family as you all adjust to the unknown and the new. xoxo

and you can't move. i'm just saying :) but i'll come visit!

Lindsay said...

Praying for you guys during this transition. it's so so hard.

Amy @ Forever 29 said...

It's fantastic that Mr. P has found work...but I know that it has to be so hard to be making all these changes. Continuing to lift y'all up.

Elizabeth said...

I completely understand the fear of the unknown! I will be praying for you & your family during this transition.

Mrs. Jones said...

What a shock this had to be! I'm saying prayers and sending super-happy and calming thoughts your way! Have a great week!

Gina said...

Waiting for answers is the hardest part. I'll say some prayers for you.

Melissa @ I Pick Pretty said...

Oh, no. I'm so very sorry. I'm continuing to pray for you all . . . what a blessing that your mister has already found work, but that potential move challenge & the shock of it all is a lot to process.

[diane] said...

So sorry to hear about Mr.'s job, but so thankful he's already found something else. God is providing for your family and that's amazing. The unknown is hard and I hope you get some clarity soon.

Mandy said...

The waiting and unknown is the worst part. You all have been in my thoughts and prayers. And if you have the option to move to Jersey, take it. I'll be your built in best friend:)

Jenny @ Practically Perfect... said...

I am so sorry to hear this. Transitions and job loss and moving are all such stressful things, especially when you've become so settled. Praying for you guys.

Lindsey B said...

I feel so out of the loop. I am so sorry that I wasn't present when this happened. I'm praying for you as these changes occur.

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